What do you do when you feel so hopelessly inlove that you would literally be shamed by everyone just to have that one person by your side?! and What do you do when it all comes crashing down because theyve done it again and you feel like they would cheat with anyone as long as theyre not with you!? and What do you do when you finally leave them for just the right amount of time for them to go crazy in self loathing for losing you, taking them back and then not feeling sure if this is love anymore. What can you do? Id like to know .. because at the end of the day.. i deserve better, but Better isnt HIM! Better isnt going to look at me the same way he does or touch me the same way he does.. Better isnt going to hold me in its arms at night when im cold or cant sleep, and Better sure as hell isnt going to feel like the tingles i get from his hot breath on the back of my neck everytime he comes to kiss me.
He has hurt me in so many ways that when i look in the mirror it isnt even me staring back anymore.. Hes broken my spirit, hes made me cry, but yet i always run back and i dont know why but i do know that he makes me happy. Maybe not all the time but he does and i just cant let him go.
Hes my sick puppy, hes my adventure, hes dark and cold and yet he draws my attention and keeps it. He stares me in the eyes and everything blurs because i know hes looking at me. Then my heart starts to race and i feel all happy again and nothing can take that away. Until.. he cheats again.
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